Freedom

It's been exactly one week since my last contact with J. Oddly enough, I'm beginning to feel "free." Free from all the drama, manipulation and craziness. I have made a decision to not have them in my life, at all-no FB, MS, Linkedin, no emails or texts responded to. I don't want to talk to, talk about, hear about or think about them. Doing so lets them back in my life, and that's just not allowed. Now that I have pieced everything together and figured a lot of stuff out-they have both hurt me in ways that I cannot even begin to express. I am moving on with my life and I only hope that somehow some higher power can guide them in the right direction (i would think that's away from each other, but no one asked me and I'm not a higher power). Some of my relationships may change because of this, but I'll cross that bridge when I come to it. And THIS will be the last time I write/blog about it...I just needed to express the feeling of freedom. Right now in this moment, I am sure that I deserve better, that I always deserved better and staying in that situation would've been toxic.

Lent

I gave up negative people for lent and I'm adding to that...I'm giving up people who treat me like shit and choose to not care if others treat me like shit. There is someone who has tormented me for 3 years with hurtful messages...It was confirmed for me today who that person is and I'm done listening to the victim bullshit or "poor her." Poor her my ass. She got herself into her situation and has managed to do it again and somehow I'm the one that gets the raw end of the deal. If everyone else wants to continue to let her be crazy and not call her out on it, then so be it but I'm DONE. I don't have time to listen to anyone defend someone who is purposely hurtful and destructive to herself and others.